In a matter of an hour, I turn one year older. What have I achieved in the past so many years? Well to simply say nothing would mean that I have just let down my parents who have worked so hard to get me to the position I am in now. They had to undergo a lot of problems and hardship in my native country Sri Lanka to get me a good education in the United States. But why do I feel as if I still have not achieved anything? Sometimes I wonder whether I have not gone through enough in life? Not enough hardship not enough pain. I have gone through a lot and have made my self mentally strong but I still feel that I havent seen the worse of the worst. If I were to pray to God and ask him why I got a life like this and some kid in Jaffna got a life like that, he would probably say “Exchange Then”. The kid in Jaffna will probably say yes and I guess I would say yes as well. I am not trying to be a saint or anything because I certainly am not, but as years have gone by I have realized that I am previlged member of the human race, but I feel as I dont want to be. I feel as if every human should go through the suffering that people in Africa or Bosnia or Sri Lanka go through. What makes me so special to get this life I have now? I sometimes get annoyed by little stuff such as my computer being not superfast as the person sitting next to me. But kids in the NE part of Lanka have not even seen a damn computer? Does it make sense that people have such unequal lifestyles? This guilt of such a good life versus the pain some kid my age is going thtough is KILLING MEEEE, and every person I talk to probably thinks I am an idiot. So I guess this is what I am going to do. I am going to hopefully stay healthy till the age of 26. By that time, I hope I have satisfied my parents wishes. I owe them that. Then I am going to join a relief agency like Red Cross and devote my life to teaching kids. HOPE I dont die before that and really hope I dont get married by then!!!